Yayyyy!

I can officially say that Jordan will be here next week! I can't wait to see him :) I'm beyond sad that he'll be on his way home Thursday.. and I won't be there to see him, but it'll be good that he has his family time before he deploys. I sure can't wait to have my turn though :) and I'm so happy that I'll get him to myself for over half of his leave! I can't even express how happy I am about that. It's going to be so much fun, and you know what? We don't even have anything planned.. minus his dad /family coming down here for a day. Other than that, it's going to be sooo much relaxing! I'm done with my mini-mester classes after next Monday, so I'll only have my online classes to concentrate on while he's here :) and hopefully that will let so much stress off of the hook! It's getting ridiculous that I'm not sleeping, having headaches, and being so emotional. I hope it helps out! I need the stress relief.. and I need to get my tan on :) I'm already pretty tan, just not tan enough ;)

I woke up to a status that one of Jordan's teammates put up saying "In 3 weeks I'll be in a warzone. The last thing I'm looking for is peace."

Ah, goodness. Just more reality that deployment is so close to being here. And that they will, indeed, be in a war zone. It's nuts. It's so hard to believe. Part of me is scared to death - terrified. The other part of me is excited. That sounds so weird to say. Why in the world would I be excited? I'm excited to go through this together, him and me. I'm excited that he's getting to see another part of the WORLD, even if it's a crappy part. I'm excited TO GET THIS OVER WITH!! And the last part is probably the best part, haha.

I'm ready for pre-deployment leave. I'm ready to see him. I'm ready for the time to ourselves. I'm ready to be together 24/7. It's going to make it so much harder to let him go afterward, but it'll all be worth it. I know it will be. And I just have to keep telling myself that.

3 weeks, huh? I think that could be plenty of time.

Officially single digits til Jordan is in Mobile for pre-d leave!

Maybe there won't be sex, maybe there won't be marriage, but by God there will be dancing.
-My Best Friend's Wedding

Father's Day.

I can't tell you guys how much this father's day means to me. I don't even remember the last time I had the same last name as the man I considered my father. As a lot of people know, I don't speak to my biological father. After he got remarried things just went downhill for us - causing me to move out the day after my 18th birthday. With the help of my mom and Jordan, I was able to move on with my life and open my heart to the man who is now my step-dad. My mom got remarried to the man that she dated for 7 years in July 2010, and I later changed my name to reflect his which was finalized in December. I got a lot of hell for changing my name, but I believe it was the right thing to do - and I'll never feel different. It's been such an eye-opener since I had that done; and it's something I couldn't dream of regretting in my life. I'm a happier person with such a more positive outlook on life because of my step-dad, and no words will ever be able to express how much that means to me and has impacted my life. He's definitely more of an actual dad to me than a step-dad, and I use those words interchangeably quite often. I just had to take a second to say how grateful I am that God brought him into not only my mom's life, but mine as well. So this is a tribute to my dad, the man who brought hope back into my life. Happy father's day, RK!

I needed these up here :)

Hmm!

I forgot I had this for a while :) I guess it'll just be another form of venting while Jordan's gone! So, here's the rundown on a quick update:

I'm an engaged woman :) Christmas morning 2010, he sneaked into my house /room while I was asleep.. and woke me up with kisses on the nose; and when I opened my eyes, there he was.. down on his knee with the ring box opened up. And the first thing I said? "But.. I have no makeup on!!" We both burst out laughing, and then I told him OF COURSE.



Also, I'm about to be a junior in college.. my mom's about to sell our house that I grew up in after my parents got divorced.. my brother graduates high school this December.. Jordan heads to Afghanistan in a couple of weeks.. Mom got remarried.. I changed my name.. we got a new puppy.. I now have an apartment.. and that's really all for the big things.